Oh boy,
I honestly don't know where to begin.
I never realized how much a few people can have such a big impact on our lives! With the help of my teacher buddy and the understanding of my friends I can honestly say in these past two weeks i haven't been happier.
I haven't seen my uncle for about 2 1/2 years now and it still hurts to think about him. To me Tim was more then an uncle, he was my role model, the brother i never had, and my friend. He took me to my first Green Day concert, and was there when i bought my first acoustic guitar, he bought me my first electric, he introduced me to all of his favorite bands (Coldplay, Oasis, Beatles, Our Lady Peace, Green Day)and he was the one who taught me my first song on guitar. I used to fall asleep to his playing. I used to listen to him every night. I idolized my uncle. I miss him. And i always though about him which always killed my mood.
About 3 weeks ago I met my teacher buddy. He is honestly in almost every way, shape and form like my uncle.
Last Friday i was in the chapel listening to my teacher buddy play guitar for the choir, there was a feeling i felt. Something that i used to feel when listening to my uncle play. Admiration, and contentness. Total Dejavu.
This guy helped me stop the little "self-pity" trip i had going on, which i should #1 apologies to my friends for putting up with such selfish behavior (i'm sorry), and #2 thank them for not giving up on me and leaving (thanks guys).
Thanks to my teacher buddy, i give a crap about my grades, i'm consistently happy, and ive started back up with my guitar playing. I don't feel like awful feeling anymore anytime i did something that reminded me of my uncle. Don't get me wrong i still miss my uncle, but my teacher buddy has made it so much easier to cope with. When im with him, when he talks with me, when he laughs with me, when we joke together it like i never lost Tim. K weird.. I know! but that's just how it is!
I would totally wanna tell him how much i appreciate him and his company and like everything that hes indirectly done for me, but i mean i don't wanna scare the poor guy. He'd probably think im crazy and like stop talking to me, and im waaaaay to scared to risk losing his friendship. Even though hell never see this ill still say it...
"thank you so much" It really does mean a lot. Plus...hes very easy on the eyes

I actually do want to tell him, but like i said, it is embarrassing and unpredictable reactions are never good xD
He makes me want to go to school. I look forward to every time we talk in the hallways, and i totally appreciate the face that he even gives me the time of day! He even wants to jam with me!
*mini explosion goes off in head*
I am really nervous though because of the fact that i haven't played with anyone since my uncle so it should be fun! <3
2 weeks! 2 weeks out of 2 1/2 years i haven't felt so happy and its all because of the company of my teacher buddy and friends.
I would like to acknowledge some very, very cool people that i know so if you get the change go check out their profiles cuz they are awesome artists!!!
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PHU-ong 
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xoxSakurax 
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Celluloid-Sora 
^^go check them out!!!!
and here are awesome groups that you should definitely check out!!
